i still need you beside me.

Come Back To Me - Akon

i am absolutly in love with this song..

Now it's morningYour still gone andI still reach for you (still reach for you)Don't know how toLive without youI will, I can take back all the hurt I've caused(take back all the hurt I've caused)If I could give back all the love I lost(give back all the love I lost)The price I pay is just to high of a cost yea

8DAYS

quarter brick.

on cloud 10 .

love'n this one miss.keri !!! nd she has on the BADDEST heels in this video. if anyones down to get them for me; ILL LOVE YOU FOREVER.. gracias mi amors !!

life is like a slideshow.

WELL THERE YOU HAVE IT; THE PICS.. ND I GOT THE NIGHTS FXCKED UP. BUT WHATEVER. :] LEMME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK .

until further notice ...

so; my birthday turned out amazing. nd considering i've been celebrating like it was KWANZA.. i'm worn out. LOL

SUNDAY* since i hit 21 at midnight; me nd my bitch went out to REGGAE night; didn't turn out so well.. her car ended up almost being towed, so that got cut short... headed over to her homeboy's house played some cards; had some tequila; came home nd knocked out .

MONDAY* HAPPY MUTHA FXCKIN BIRTHDAY TO MEEE.. i went out with my family; mom/dad/brother/uncles/aunts... nd needless to say the OLD FOLKS showed me wussup. LOL. ehh; KRUNKNESS!

TUESDAY* had a hangover; went to school; nd then.. came home nd finished off my nuvo .

WEDNESDAY* Marcellus took me out to dinner after i got out of school since he was goin to be leaving for miami nd unable to celebrate; then i met up wit 2/4 of D&P.nd we cruised the city.. kicked it wit our homie keyland nd a few of his peoples.. SHOUT OUTS TO MILK.. LMAO.

THURSDAY* my bitch took me out again; OMG . did we forget our names; minds; sanity; etc. LMFAO! but FXCK YOU we had fun .. we hit up MYNT which wasn't a total bust cusz we had our own table nd FREE BOTTLES. HELLLLLLO. then we headed to ICON.which idk if i like.. it seems like a long ass hallway but i mean being drunk kinda distracted me from tht. this night ended up pretty embarrassing but I DO NOT CARE. lmao . thanks .

FRIDAY*. i had dinner at BAR LOUIE's which was delicious. after that.. me, bestfriend, tani, niquia,dana, frank nd larry went bowling very ammusing to say the least. LOL . nd to those 6.. ' THATS WHAT IT IS ' . lol love you guyys

SATURDAY*. i layed around in bed for the most part cusz i knew the night had some fun instore. LOL. but DIAMONDS ND PEARLS ENT definitally was watched by columbus ... duuuh ! .. we all looked amazing. nd we stepped out to the club .. [ SHOUT OUTS TO DJ FATE for showin LOVE all night.] nd throwin on the SWAG SURF. YES; ME & MY BESTFRIEND JAZMENE INEZ SHOWED COLUMBUS HOW TO SWAG SURF... after that we went nd kicked it wit some REAL COOL CATS lol . nd then came back here nd knocked out . [ MAD LOVE TO CHENEASHA FOR MAKIN IT LAST NIGHT.] nd too all my girls.. I LOVE ALL YA .

now; i am officially worn out from last week nd all the events listed nd it's back to reality .. [SCHOOL GIRL GRIND.. nd YES money maker is back at it.. i got a JOB in this crazy ass reccession . ] SO UNTIL FURTHER NOTICE; im done with the drinks until i touch down in the NINE FIVE FOUR [ umM SPRINGS are you ready for me??] ...

p.s. as soon as i figure out how to make a slideshow or suttin i'll put up birthday pics ... until then , be my friend on facebook.. they're on there...

uno.

i've been talked into it...

TWEET TWEET..

I AM NOW ON TWITTER.

www.twitter.com/jayLOVELY

nd it goes like dis ...

how does it feel to wake up to the feelin` nd know tht i dnt give a fxck wat you feelin` i didn't know my life was so appealin` _charles hamilton

PREACH mr. hamilton PREACH!!! .

word is bond.

Love is patient, Love is kind and is not jealous,

Love doesn't brag nor boast, does not act unbecomingly.

it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account

a wrong suffered. does not rejoice in unrighteousness,but rejoices with the truth;

Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

1 Corinthians 13:4

my grandmother said to me yesterday " i want you to listen, but what you do with the words i give you is up to you . you can either chew them up and swollow them; or chew them up and spit them out" ... so thats how i feel .

i'm sick of these relationships where people are like oh; me nd my man have the BEST relationship nobody's 'fxckin wit us' or everyone should be jealous we know why your mad...when i'm sure there are relationships far better then your own,have far more background then your own, nd you nd your partner probably beef most the time . EVERY relationship has there problems and for people to front like they don't .. is BOGUS as my bestfriend would say. your in a relationship for noone else but you and your other half, so stop trying to ' prove points ' to everyone else. more then likely noone cares. nd if they do; they probably need a hobby... so i leave you with ;

to all the people in relationships out there; keep doin ya thing. don't worry about the extra shit cause all it's doing is giving you an attitude and another reason to fight with your boyfriend/girlfriend. if you can't get shit right;let it go. i'm sure somebody can give you the other 50%. feel me??

she wont play number 2 .

i absolutly LOVE this song .. idc if it's brutha or not lol .. enjoy

okay; so i was at this game nd it was interesting to say the least .. lol shout out to the big homies SAM GODDARD & KAY*SLAY .. who got to play in the game reppin for INDEPENDENCE HIGHSCHOOL CLASS OF 06 !! ..

21 .

ITS FINALLY HERE.

TODAY IS MY 21ST BIRTHDAY; ND IM EXCITED.

IT'S GONNA BE PRETTY NON-STOP FROM HERE..

BUT; ILL BE SURE TO POST PICS. :]

THREE DAYS TIL MY BDAY ..

Love your enemies, bless those who curse you.

For if you only love those who love you... where's your reward?

this little boy here; is my inspiration to make it through the day . the reason i smile, the reason i wake up, the reason i better myself.. my heart, my soul, my god son JAYLON LAVONE KINCANNON. my Jay*Bug..you remind me how truly blessed i am.I love you with all of my heart. Nina's big boy .. how could you not be in love .

' BIRTHDAY GIRL IN 3DAYS '

& MEEE.. i'll be at the bar on patron wit no chaser.

nd if you dont know how ..

den watch us do it ...
SWAG SURFIN

D&P ENT. WE GETS IT IN .

tomorrow .

DON'T FORGET;
tune into BETs 106&PARK
tomorrow march 11th @ 6pm .
VOTE for TIYANA PAYNE
who will be performing LIVE !!

this is serious ..

OK; so anybody that knows me knows that i LOVE hot sauce.

i eat hot sauce on EVERYTHING. like forreal. everything.if i can't

put hotsauce on it more then likely i wont eat it. i just LOVE it. i always have.

its a family thing. we have ALL kinds of hotsauce. you know wen you go on

vacations nd your family always gets somethin from tht state.. well we always

got a new kind of hotsauce LOL. sounds crazy; but it's true..

BUT; here's the deal..i think i've eaten so much hot sauce it

has made me sick ... sooo i have to give it up for awhile.

nd this is really SAD to me; im upset damn it ..:(

sooo; so long for now hot sauce..i'll miss you !

mOvInG oN ...

this weekend was str8; nothin to big.. me & the bestfriend hit the malls yesterday nd spent the day outside; cusz it FINALLY is actin like spring here in OHIO. some people OD'd on the excitment nd brought out the shorts nd tube tops nd shit. nd people it's just not that warm yet. BE PATIENT.lol. but it was nice to get out in the weather. after all tht;i went to applebees wit a few ppl nd then me&roniquia went nd kicked it wit the 2LIVE crew.. those niggas are CRAZY.lol but it was a interesting night; definitally proved the city of columbus is entirely too fxckin small.. BUT WHATEV ! today; i wasn't feelin real good but i went out to eat at GENJI'S with my momma..aunt shelly nd the girls. " i had my fingers crossed all day; do you know how hard it is to eat with chopsticks with your fingers crossed" .. lol i love my bestfriend damnn it after tht me nd my mom went to the new 'sweet rollin deep' new target. it's mad nice. ..chilled out played some cards..nd now.. here it is; 12:17am. nd my birthday is officially ONE WEEK AWAYYYYYYYYYYY.. IM EXCITED.. :D

FREE.

The essence of generosity is letting go... Pain is always a sign that we are holding on to something- usually ourselves. When we feel unhappy, when we feel inadequate, we get stingy; we hold tight.. Generosity is an activity that loosens us up. By offering whatever we can- a dollar, a flower, a word of encouragement- we are training in letting go. Free yourself and let go...

106 & PARK

TUNE IN NEXT WEDNESDAY MARCH 11TH TO 106 & PARK. TIYANA PAYNE WILL BE PERFORMING LIVE WITH J.LORRAINE;REPPIN NOT ONLY FOR THE LADY RAPPERS BUT ALSO COLUMBUS, OHIO. MAKE SURE YOUR BY YOUR T.V. @ 6PM EST. ND VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE VOTE !!!!!!!!!!

THE BOSS AND THE FIRST LADY PT.2 PRODUCED BY SINATRA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHE'S BACK,AND SHE'S TAKIN SPOTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!NEW ALBUM IS COMING SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!SHE'S BACK IN THE LAB WITH:*SINATRA(OF COURSE)*SNOW(OF COURSE)*INTRODUCING "BILLIONAIRE BOYSCOUT"*SEARIUS ADD*J LORRAINE*FREEZEMAKE SURE YOU TUNE IN TO BET'S 106&PARK!!!WEDNESDAY,MARCH 11TH,2009!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!THIS IS THE YEAR OF THE EXECGANG!!!!!!!!!!!!

deeper then i thought .

blank;

blank from all of the hurt.

blank from all i have learned.

blank from everything that i deserve.

blank from the thoughts of you.

blank from the me i thought i knew.

blank from the smile i used to wear.

blank from the pain that causes glare.

pain;

pain from the love i thought would always last.

pain from the rememberance of my terrifying past.

pain from the neglect of friends i thought were true.

the biggest pain; knowing i lost you.

strength;

strength to stand back on my own two feet.

strength to let go to whoever you meet.

strength to forgive the way i've always felt.

strength to accept the cards i've been dealt.

strength to not only love, but to love hard.

happiness;

happiness from the direction i am taking.

happiness from the memories we had been making.

happiness from the angel in my head.

happiness from all the drama thats dead.

xOxo- MEE.

that was all off top; no thought into it or anything. no edits, no nothing. straightup.don't like it..EHHHH oh well. BUT it's definitally how i'm feeling. AnYwAYs. i'm sittin` here vibin` nd realizin` my brother really is my EVERYTHING. i don't care what we go through or how long we go our seperate ways he's my heart nd i know he wants nothing but the best for me..[ I AM MY BROTHERS KEEPER]. i'm sayin` this becusz he's been down nd out about a female which made me realize family is really the ONLY thing you NEED. all other things/people are accesseries/wants...enjoyable yes. but family is going to be the ONLY people by yourside FOREVER. [good family anyways, nd i'm considering friends you can call family,friends that just walk in your crib like it's theres sayin` ' hi mom' or ' hi dad' , friends that know when somethings wrong even if you don't say anything... those friends are family.] BUT; relationships END. my parents were married for 20+ yrs nd there divorced.. i mean it happens, feelings don't ALWAYS remain the same. Not at all sayin` that relationships will NEVER last becusz some do nd i applaud those that never fall out of love,nd i hope to one day have one of those relationships. I can honestly say I Love Aaron Devendra Paul nd i always will [ hints the tat ] nd i know he in his heart will always love me [ hints my name carved in his arm ] But, there's a reason that things haven't worked out right now nd in my heart i truly believe if it never works out again..we had a good run, we lived out our right now. but i guess i'm sayin` all of this to say... take pride in your family. don't forget to tell them you love them,or remind them that your there for them whenever they need you, nd you'll be sittin on the sidelines for when they don't waitin` to be put in the game. [ Justin Jaymes; i love you Bubba nd i know theres no obstical that you can't over come. your a Roberts as our dad would say lol.] nd to the rest of my family.. 'i love you all nd i'm here'...

nd i leave you with ; i'm walking away from anything that will hold be back from my future.i'm walking away knowing i can always smile if i let myself. nd last but most definitally not least; i am walking away with the most amazing ' family ' by my side .

queen of the city <3

' the first place is often the worst

place but fxck it i love it here...

i CALL iT MY BiRTHPLACE'

COLUMBUS OHIO; gettin alotta love lately.

IF YOU KNOW LIKE I KNOW;YOU SHOULD LIE LOW..

IM STILL GETTIN IT IN OHIO !!

OH; nd drizzy says ' I SEE ALL THIS MONEY THROUGH MY OHIO STATE BUCKEYES'

&& im OUT; queen of the city . [ 14 days til my birthday ]

diamonds & pearls ENT .

just a little run down from me & my right nd left hands. it's not about ONE person so if you take it to heart you have somethings to change huh? LOL. mind you this was dumb early nd we were pretty drunk. ENJOY. much love !